The useless days will add up to something. The shitty waitressing jobs. The hours writing in your journal. The long meandering walks. The hours reading poetry and story collections and novels and dead people’s diaries and wondering about sex and God and whether you should shave under your arms or not. These things are your becoming.
- tiny beautiful things
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A friend and I were talking the other day, slightly reminiscing about our high school days and how much we’ve both changed since. It’s an awkward time; you don’t know much about who you are while embarrassingly trying your hardest to fit in with people who don’t know who they are either.
To get to the point, we were talking about how we observed some of our former classmates to be extreme conservatives. I wondered how I never noticed these features of their characters in high school - and my friend corrected me, saying that they had always been as such - that they were always a product of their upbringing and that their views were a direct correlation to their parent’s stances on politics.
Then we preceded onto the subject of my political viewpoints. Mind you, I don’t really have any. I prefer centrist but in reality, I don’t like to comment on things that I don’t know much about. For me, politics is something that unless you know everything about it, there isn’t much you can say with great conviction.
What we noticed was odd was that, like my former classmates, I was brought up in an extremely conservative upbringing. My parents are quite conservative, as well as Catholic. Since the age of three up until high school, I’ve attended Catholic schools. Despite that, I’ve formed my own viewpoints on homosexuality, sex, education, welfare, etc. And what we both wondered was… how? How, in a small, confined world, did I happen to branch out? I didn’t have an extreme group of friends that tainted me or any life-changing experienced that opened up my world… yet, I still managed to find my own voice. I don’t know how I did it, but I wish more people could do the same.